We made it through our first week!

Well, technically it was 4 days.

And technically pat was home for 1/2 of one day… 

But this was the first week it was just Cali girl and I! I feel like I should celebrate!

May not seem like a big deal to many… but I’ve been open and transparent about life after baby #3… it’s kicked my booty. See my post about celebrating her second birthday and my depression here. 

It took me a year to ask for help. I was struggling with postpartum depression, anxiety, and rage so severe I didn’t know I had that darkness inside of me. 

I waited too long to ask for help. I knew what I was feeling wasn’t normal or healthy. 

It didn’t help that we were so many other things happening in the world causing such uneasiness. So many women could relate, I found myself sad I didn’t admit it earlier and sad for how many women went through similar experiences. 

But the medicine helped. Talking helped. Seeing a therapist helped. Being open about it helped. Changing my lifestyle and healthy habits helped. 

Then about 6 months ago we realized that with this move (did I mention we moved to Sicily, Italy?) our lifestyle (I.e. me not working) would change. It’s taken me 6 months to accept and come to grips that it’s going to be just her and I at home.

This freaked me out. Because she was my trigger. This happy, funny, chill classic #thirdborn child that everyone loves… we have had such a hard time together… leading up to this week has taken me 6 months of mentally preparing for.

By Monday… I was so excited for it. Pumped up for all the fun and just to START this new routine! I am seriously so excited for this time with JUST her. Bella and Teagan are so happy to be back in school, riding the bus, learning with their new teachers, playing with their new friends.. I am SO happy for them. They had a great first week which makes me less worried for them, and able to really just chill with Cali girl.

So here we are on Friday…A few ups and downs. A few tears. But… it’s different when there is just one again to give all your attention to! I can’t wait for us to get into a new routine and enjoy areas of Sicily and Catania together just the two of us!